.I.C.H.U.L. .E.R.I.K.A <3

2009-08-26T13:53:00.000-07:00

i'm going to abandoned this blog. die die abandoned it. hmmm i will have a new new one with only limited excess. hmm i can only invite those i TRUST hundrend percent - my girls; my sapphire; my jewels - the 5 angels...

im going to invite sum of my sec schoolmate - limited too! - ite buddies; nabilah only.

this time its privatise n totally secret. sorry for the incovenience but i will be here, looking at ur comment if ur all tag me. :P cheers.

2009-08-26T01:31:00.000-07:00

Wish I could be the one

The one who could give you love

The kind of love you really need

Wish I could say to you

That I'll always stay with you

But baby that's not me

You need someone willing to give their heart and soul to you

Promise you forever, baby that's something I can't do

Oh I could say that I'll be all you need

But that would be a lie

I hope someday you can

Find some way to understand I'm only doing this for you

I don't really wanna go

But deep in my heart I know this is the kindest thing to do

You'll find someone who'll be the one that I could never be

Who'll give you something better

Than the love you'll find with me

Oh I could say that I'll be all you need

But that would be a crimeLeaving someone when you love someone

Is the hardest thing to do

When you love someone as much as I love you

Oh I don't wanna leave you

Baby it tears me up inside

But I'll never be the one you're needing

Baby, its never gonna work out

I know I'd only hurt you

I know I'd only make you cry

I'm not the one you're needing

I love you, goodbye

2009-08-16T21:34:00.000-07:00

went to KENDURI ytd (16/08/09)
had a lotsa of food to eat.
hanging out with my sis n cuzz liyy at Bik Odah's room.
purposely didn't bring my phone with a BIG REASON.
and i found 10 missed call n 15 messages. =X
i miss the kids especially AQ n Mia. they're simply to cute to forget.
n i like best of MIA, my sis told me the way she react to my sis when my sis wanted to see her lego's toy which form into pony. she look at my sis and said, "you (showing her finger to my sis -not rude ways-) said please to me" haha i laugh to myself. she so simply adorable. my sis got a video of her singing lion sleeps tonight. AQ grown up and didn't really with me but at night when he got no friends he then came up to me n my siblings and talk. haha. thats how kids react with adults nowaday.
i got to know also my cuzz afie, like this one girl i know which i consider KEREK. hahaha (name not mention) hahahaa he thinks she sweet hahaha lols. funny.

attention; 1st-planning a buke puase outing with cousins.
2nd-planning a buke puase outing with my clique SJ =P
3rd-planning a buke puase outing with hid's clique =O
4th-planning a buke puase outing with my 2nd clique, the kentalans. teehe >_<
5th-planning to watch with anyone who's available to watch - the orphan; the proposal; the final destination;Where got ghost?;Love aaj Kaal;Diary of sex addict(definitely must be with my SJ clique m18!);500 days of summer;the ugly truth;bandslam;bloodties;danceflick;i love you bethcooper;year one;coco before chanel;g-force!!!

2009-08-12T07:48:00.000-07:00



		I will marry tws.
		After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in united kingdom in our fabulous Mansion.
		We will have 2 kid(s) together.
		Our family will zoom around in a green chevrolet.
		I will spend my days as a self employ, and live happily ever after.

i like this. 1 boy(Nazeer Evariste T) 1 girl(Nashia Esmee T)
hahaha. TWS rox =p

2009-08-09T10:07:00.000-07:00

my sis stole my cookies!~ nya!
this is how my dessert look like.

just came back from work.

yeah working on a big occasion seem so good.

double pay but no customer! hahaa :P

okie, and very happy that someone drop by.

he made my day, he save me from a dull temporary world of 8 hours haha, i know u know.

got a lot things to do sooooo time past fast.

came at 8 leave at 9. good. he rarely in but giving a lots of shock. like a biscuit. something here, there and missing. hahahaaha laugh laugh. explore the whole market at night i guess. nothing better to dooo. hehehe.

knock of at ten thirty but bro pick me up at 1102 what the!!!!!!!!!!ah broooooooooooooo....

then since not that tired since tomorrow working afternnooon. i made hmmm yummy orea dessert. told sis once finish have to wait for an hour to made it cold and nice to eat, she said okay2 in the end she's already sounds a sleep.

im done for a day. i think i eat the dessert tomoorow. simply made for national day for my family. =)

eat while it cold. hahahahaahahahaahaha

2009-08-08T07:51:00.000-07:00

quiz i describe my five girls using colours given.

and this is the results, (my respond in brackets);
The one who will never forget you is aiai.(you're sweet darla aiai!!! love u!)
The one who you can consider as your real friend is yaya. (you! y not? everyday i saw u!!!)
The one you really love is asn. (missing u now!)
This may be your soulmate: riri. (riri! im not les!!!! bff for life!)
The one you will remember for the rest of your life is fafa. (haha probably, she's unique!)

2009-08-08T04:54:00.000-07:00

my baby is so loving and intoxicatin!

work n work.
after work, wenn to SSC for window shopping.
thought of only SEE SEE. but in the end spend $8 @ daiso.
then a few more for my cooking adventure. aha, yes im in a gd mood.
want to bake cookies for my dear classmate. specially made for july babies(one of them is me! MarcusT, Dafie n ritha) haha and august babies(Zayid, NAzri, Eileen, jeff & sheikh)...and......~~~ ^_^ nya!!! hehe

-sorry july babies, for the lateness.

Decided to study well, but not going for early IA. i dun think im ready enough.
I miss my U-GIE hehe =P

wait for my cookies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-08-06T05:49:00.000-07:00

I do, cherish u.
I love that sentence.
I have a reason too.
but i kept it to myself.

FRoliCK yummy ;) peach with strawberry. (I want it again~)

to you know who..
you told me my attitute change?
you told me you don't know who am i now..
you told you prefer the me during initial of the year.
i listen to someone, not to keep any grudge.
he told me maybe you meant something.
yes i follow what he said.
i became the initial me of the year.
i study. i did assignment.
just that i couldnt stop talking.
talking is my style.
but whats the different? i've been talking from the start.
i smile at you. you didn't
i asked you a question you didn't reply.
you only reply when another classmate ask.
what do you want actually???

you said you don't know me anymore?
in fact i don't know you anymore!
you getting overboard actually.
i know you want to help us classmate..
but please, its not me who need to understand.
but you to understand me. PLEASE!

i'm in love with TWS.
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
thanks for the advice, LOVE <3

2009-08-04T00:16:00.000-07:00

still fcuked with yesterday stuff.
hating somebody.
do i look like i change?
did i bring my problem in school?
i was happy to be in school to get away from problem.
n u actually said i bring problem in school?
have u actually ever understand...
u think pin pointing ppl is sooo easy.
because of u my self esteem lower down.
feel like quiting sch. but i can't.
like what malay proverbs said biar susah sekarang senang kemudian.

2009-08-02T06:46:00.000-07:00

Confessions.

In love with HG.

I love you so deeply,

I love you so much,

I love the sound of your voice

And the way that we touch.

I love your warm smile

And your kind,

thoughtful way,

The joy that you bring

To my life every day.

I love you today

As I have from the start,

And I'll love you forever

With all of my heart.

2009-08-02T03:13:00.000-07:00

getting tired to update blog.

i miss him. i miss him.

my one n only love.

2009-07-22T20:45:00.000-07:00

one more day.....

few more hours....

i'm 18........yahoo

2009-07-19T23:36:00.000-07:00

u love hols? who dont love hols but this is extremely irritating.
yesterday afternoon i was down with fever @ 39.3 d.celcius. ate two prescribed pill specially for fever and it was down to 38.4 d.celcius. feeling sleepy but i only slept for 2 hours cause its fucking hot but my sis said its not, so i think it could be the fever symptom. waited another two hour to popped another two pill and my fever when down 37.6..so i thought i'm very normal again. so i was happily baked brownies for my class since ms eileen wanted to..it was a bit abnormal i tell you cause of the marshmellow thingy. very happy with the "results", to prevent for any jumping jack temperature i popped in another two pill before i got to sleep.
i had a good sleep.
but it was very ridiculous the next morning, i feel fresh after bathing, plan to go sch. woke my mum up to give me allowance. and my mum start to nag and said my fever is still high. i check again and wth its 38.3 d.celcius.
my mum took an urgent leave to send me to polyclinic. we waited for hours since 9am till 11am then i got my consultation, doc said now h1n1 was not serious as they took it as normal flu, cause my one is with cough, flu n short of breath i was told that i got light influenza. and i get 7 days MC! am i happy? duh not! i'll be boring to death. serious!

can said that i fall sick bcoz im tired working.
can said also i fall sick bcoz of a guy
can said also i fall sick bcoz of a friend
whatever the reason is make me healthy again.

and worst of all, i can't celebrate my birthday with my friendsss!!! :(
pray hard that im healthy again.
call me...
text me...
msn me...
tag me...
so that i will not die of boredom!

2009-07-18T05:23:00.000-07:00

Dafi, isn't he cute n charming.

yeah!

when my friend said he's cute..

i actually disagree.

i even said "kental ag dier.."

n now i actually fall in love with him.

hahahax.

2009-07-18T02:05:00.000-07:00

change my mind! doesn't want to publish another two poems!

wahhh..
im sick..
i've got flu, then headache and bad cough.it can't be im missing him.
hopefully i will get well soon. just don't want to miss school on monday.
got test! po1 test. xD

working is worst.
got an audit just now, everything went in mess.
im not in wrong yet i was scold. WTF
resting at home, not going to kak ct's baby function.
i'll just have to miss carrying Sabrina. why? I'm sick! get it?
i miss the boy in my life! i miss him so much. Ahmad Aqmal, you're my sunshine, my only sunshine =)

listening to 'terlanjur cinta' it make me cried, thinking of that guy. haha i'm such a weak duckling.
i've got to stand up again, like the people's myth, in this world there's actually a million guys, why waste a litre of tears on a guy who don't appreciate you. go for someone who love you not who you like, cause the one you like will go to the one they love.

I create this. not really originated. XP

Time passing so slow..
chaining our walking path..
thousands of stories created, turned into confusion.

did you ever know?
my feelings for you is still unknown...

crying at night..
tears soaking my cheeks..
trying to stand up on the grounds..
with the love that have been reject.

what i've been holding on
its hard for me to let it go.

i've overly fall in love with you
and i've given all my heart to you
but why only now you're seeking my love.

i don't understand what had happened.
what's wrong and less in me toward you.
now its too late to put on blames
because once love , i will forever love you.

2009-07-16T23:08:00.000-07:00

life is miserable.
i just didn't knw how to face him.
let make it clear, LOVE is SUCK!

avoiding your eye contact.
walk an opposite direction of yours.
be happy when actually im not.
occupied myself with all my friends voices.
when u actually have present infront of the class, i closed my eyes.
no intention to lay my eyes on you anymore.
if that is actually what u want.
ok. i did it.

crush

2009-07-16T23:01:00.000-07:00

I never knew my love for you would deepen day by day..
I thought from your eyes I could see love but it mere sympathy..
It was foolish of me to think that way..
In the end it was me that getting hurt from this one-sided affair..
I felt so foolish for loving you..
I knew that you already know as you started to ignore me completely..
you treat me like nobody.
It really hurt me to see the new you now,
just merely because of my admiration toward you,
I really hope you will take me back in your life as a friend, only friend.
cause i'm not ready to lose a friend like you.
Cause I know now that you're just a crush to me..

credit @ nurul hidayah rahmat

it was weird of her..to write me this poem, when i actually told her what had happened to me recently. no matter what, thanks anyway, thanks for being by my side.
lots of poem on the way, she wrote 3 type! lols

2009-07-16T09:27:00.000-07:00

my birthday is coming!

i'm eighteen. are u happy? cause i am.
haha. i can watch m18 movie. finally.
then i can take driving license. won't that be good?
all i need to think is shud i come school? i can't miss my PQA! n OHS!
i love the subby. lols.

just a hints to my love ones.
* i love chip n dale!
* pink mp3 frm 7eleven look nice!
* i think i need a sponsor for my btt?! :P
* i love my lappy, i thinkk i need a lots of thing for my lappy.
* i think i look better with nice rebond hair or maybe digital perm?
* i need to recolour my hair!
* soft toy is loved!

but whatever its is, its the thought that count. the most thing i need is blessing from each of u.
pray for me for my life. i love u all.

got a poll for ppl...
should i wear TUDUNG(scarf) nw since im already 18?
1.yes
2.no
3.maybe

2009-07-16T08:47:00.000-07:00

Do you think i can believe you?

1st, u told ARSHAD! toward him i can't trust too, even if he swear infront of him.
then AZMI overheard it. I and U may not know who spreading, but by rights..
its obviously U who started it! u get it?

PM, we r in a grp together.. likewise, i'll do my part n u'll do ur part. thats all.
if you excuse yourself n wanna leave the grp...ok i'll excuse you. don't tell me, just meet miss pam face to face.

I'm normally a lenient prsn. but when it come to secrets, it will forever be a secret.
because i was blinded by the FRIENDSHIP..i became one day STUPID, i told u my secret, i thought i could trust you but u see what happened in the end?
i did told nabilah n hidayah too, they never even spout about it to somebody else, cause they know the DEFINITION of a SECRET!.

i will not take the surrounding btw me n him seriously as i can go thru the pain by myself without anyone knowing. like what ms eileen told me CRUSHES is just CRUSHES. so no matter what i can mend my wound easily. because of you i cried, i cried not because of him acting STRANGER toward me! but i cried because i was stupid to trust somebody like you. if i actually listen to...nvm its too late anyway.

2009-07-15T21:23:00.000-07:00

Freakingly hate somebody right NOW!
fcuking trust her yet she did this.
I WILL NEVER FORGiVE or FORGET

2009-07-14T23:08:00.000-07:00

:( life so sad.
someone actually treat me like a STRANGER.
can't do much anything.
don't know the reason and didn't plan to KNOW it.
J told me to try the other guy but..he's ATTACHED.
though i like 'girlfriend' by avril, n i'm not that type.

True love is when you shed a tear and still want him

2009-07-05T20:46:00.001-07:00

CA is stick to the same.
No changes. thanks god.
hahaz.

saw him.
nothing to said.
seems like a total stranger when we met.

today working despite schooling.
no choice.

2009-06-28T22:22:00.000-07:00

One more week.
meet him again.
Fire burning in my heart.

3 days ago.
severe ties with FIT in silences.
hate him.

Last Week of sufferings.
Tired of working.
Feel like dying.

Now im going to work.
anything message me.

I miss him. I need him.
I will wait until he's mine.

2009-06-17T09:32:00.001-07:00

sorry babes! n mmm hunks?? haha i will be on hiatus maybe for a week more cause im seriiously bz with my work.

sorry!
Sorry!

i miss my girls!
i miss my kentalans!
i miss my clique!
i miss HIM! heheeh serious. lols.

2009-05-29T05:53:00.001-07:00

Exams Coming! *speechless*
BarCA wins "Ole Ole Ole Ole...haha"

this is how my reaction is with two different scenario.
you will understand y if you're in my shoes.

missing him. its not double H - JOANNE! :P
missing tennis.
missing school.
missing friends.

but somehow..GIRLFRIENDS! we're going to meet. oh yeah.
miss eu girls :P
XOXOXOXo

2009-05-26T01:07:00.000-07:00

Exam in 5 more days.
didn't study..but hoppingg to get GPA of 3.5! am i being funny? laugh laugh!
sad thing. lost my phone.
sorry to said this but this school really give bad luck.
first i lost my mp3. never report as i find it worthless to do it, but then when it come to handphone gosh! i start to cry. who won't? i borrow the phone from hid. thank god she's calmed when i inform her. haiz. but u know i have to pay her back.
i report to cvc. i hope someone be a kind person and return me my stuff.

day by day, i'm falling for him. really falling. but my friend said don't put on hope to much. i knoe whats she toking actually. i understand. but why is he giving fake respond. worthless! shit. im really in a shit thingy. i can't stop looking at him. oh dear bad thing is he's younger than me but who really cares. age is just a number. i can accept it but can he? why o why.

all i can do now is to love in silence. one day my prince will come, whether is he or not...someday i will understand. :)

2009-05-20T21:21:00.000-07:00

CRONGRATS to KRIS Allen.....for getting the title of American Idol 2009. i can't believe i support the real idol 2 times, first i can sense that david cook will win. then its him. oh my. just my luck. hahaha. Kris i promise to buy your album once it come out in SINGAPORE, oh yeah. :P rock on bob! haha :)

2009-05-19T20:44:00.000-07:00

surprise! yup2 so happy today. two days ago went home with the daya's. took 27 to hougang then took 965 after that finally 859. reach about 8 plus. during that period i was scared as i didnt receive any call back from hitachi. *sob* i tot it was rejected since it didn't call again to reach me since i fail to pick up their call eventually...fujitsu call me and said hitachi tried to reached me but couldn't make so fujitsu is telling me that my loan is approved but then my yamapi have not reached singapore yet so i can't pick him up. haiz. i have to wait till hmmm mid to end of june to wait for another call from fujitsu. lols. sad n happy mood.

today took a quiz who is ur hubby/boyffie in sj? guess what? i got my long time scandal! but deep down i know im still faithful to my huubby. muacksss. hehe.
make use of boyffie since he got all 5C's hahaha.

rh said to me just now that she dream of me with a guy. i ask her to describe who's that guy. she told me his skin was like HIDAFIE. wth. no chance for me w hykel? damn damn damn hahaha. but dream are just your toy in sleeps.

then currently took another quiz. damn i got donghae now! i want hannie. only hunny is made for hannie. :P

let me cont doin what i do. get back to you later on. when i got timeeeeeeeeee. :)

2009-05-18T02:11:00.001-07:00

guess what!? i bought a new tennis racket for me! hehe so happy. i actually want to buy like roger federer racket but my dad dont let me cause it cause me 91.50. haiz. so i bought 65 and its wilson too babe! and very light. at least i chose the good one too.

today im buying bagpack too. my hand hurt if i kept using side bag. if i dont change soon i will be using shoulder wrap since currently im using ankle wrap. i bought tennis ball too so that i can practice downstairs. i think today goin to be dull day cause my sis is working haiz. boring day as usual. no fight no fun lols hahaha.

i wonder if my mum will cooked. hahahah.
im hungry!!! ahhh :P

2009-05-16T02:14:00.000-07:00

this is for nab & nadd (imissyou! hahaha like real aje...eh betul la...hahaha lols) kental!!! hahaha...hhahaa

since u guys want me to update, ok i update k.
yesterday as per normal tennis training. supposed to be 5 rounds of running only but then because of somebody else not paying attention, we got to run 7 rounds...its tiring. my ankle hurt the most! not lying eh nab. jgn nk mempeburukkan aku hahaha...lols

so happy to meet the cute boy again. who doesn't. super duper cute. i just couldn't resist. unexpectedly that day also i met anotheer coach that is so hawt! first imp i tot he was nurul aini's hubby's lil bro, shafiq. but his name turn out to be hykel or haiqel or haikel...what it is. and shafiq is not into tennis he's into soccer only. lols. hhahHhAHAHA.

rain heavily. all the training have to be cancel. we did some interaction at the dry place. me n the girls sign for the team committee(i force them!!) hahah..we book our slot for training @ 3.30pm to 4pm bu i will definitely continue my training to see eu boys (hmmmmmm) lols hahaha >*< haha

discuss with shafiee bout the racket and thanks shafiee ehk, trying to hide your luagh when i know you really want to laugh for what i said. what wrong in having pink tennis bro! hahaha. lols.

had some cool down training but im somehow think its still warm up training. haiz tiring. but i get to skip class due to my ankle. im still wondering whether i shud skip class on monday for i want to go to doctor to check on my ankle. damn pain sey.

i planned to buy two tennis racket. one directly from shafiee my fav coach! haha thats specially for any tournament training..coach buy always the best what! :P now im going to buy is pink princ or maybe wilson red n white or yellow. thats for my leisure time.

thats all for now. how's nadd? nab? happy? hahaha lols. its long enuff to read rite. hahaha :P enjoy

2009-05-07T22:23:00.000-07:00

surprisingly...tears forming from my eyes. although im too late to dicover this news...it really broke my heart to pieces. the little was so sweet, but somehow i know their god love them more. rest in peace little maria sue.

the song i played currently was written by her adopted dad, steven curtis chapman.
the lyric was so touching that it gave me goosebump thoroughly.
im very sensitive girl who easily felt down. i love kids a lot. its hard for me to accept a little kid to die so young. but i always know the reason why and i can't eventually stop it.

the news;
The Chapman family mourned over little maria sue.

im going for my tennis first practice. although my ankle sprained bt my love for tennis is definitely not going to make me skip any lesson of it. :P

baby i love you..

2009-04-29T04:54:00.001-07:00

I'm only happy when I dream at night,
Because all I dream is you.
It's the only time of the day
When I'm not feeling blue.

I dream of your love, tenderness,
And embrace...
That beautiful smile on your face

I dream of the time we were together.
It makes me feel so good...
Really special

When I wake you're not around,
And I feel blue again.
But I know, when I close my eyes
At night...
I'll dream of you again.

2009-04-29T04:19:00.000-07:00

I Love you in silence
because in silence
i find no hurt

I Love you in silence
because in silence
i find no doubt

I Love you in silence
because in silence
i find no jelousy

I Love you in silence
because in silence
i find no regrets

But most of all...

I Love you in silence
because in silence
i know you are Mine!

2009-04-26T22:10:00.000-07:00

well luck! no internet for days really bored me to death!
now i'vegotchance finally, lets re trace what ive done all this while.

24th april~

*no school but yet still have to come no choice! due to my tennis briefing.
then when to CP, with the budds! nab n day..pplus ti n da who is day's friends. the reason is to help nab on something which end up going home at 3. reached home i nearly PITAM! but imglad i can holdonto it since my bro had no key.

25th april~

*work as usual. but big quarrel happen btw my sis. i was really fed up i have no choice but to talk back. ive been tolerate for so many years. no more talking. really hurt me alot.

26th april~

*selling ice cream...my mum cook something delicious!!!!!!! hehe. lols.

27th april~

*the story still ongoing. continue tomorrow.

2009-04-22T06:14:00.000-07:00

See what I've done?
I've deleted all my post! :P
I want to rmb no more about the past.
I want to start a fresh new start...
but i promise that im not going to change any link any more. teehee.

I guess im no more hiatus..i will update more soon. nite~